i am back to normal

whatever happened tonight proves that i will no longer or ever will post about love again because love causes a lot of trouble. this is why my friend Fai is right, 'feelings' are weird and that is probably why she hates being in love lol haha.

and i think i've had enough. in all honesty i think i am just a tad bit traumatized by love. yes i do have a crush and it isn't him because that's just.. wrong. it's AG :) haha first day masok class lalu suka. wait lemme do my lame laugh.. 'hiihihihihihih' okay there you go.

and to you. um this is awkward. i hope we can still remain friends but if you don't want to then fine it was nice knowing you hahahaha. i know you'll never read this, which is why i feel brave enough to write this. i think you should probably take time to analyse yourself a bit lol because you seem like you can't handle things and control your emotions.whatever it is, kmk mendoakan yang terbaik untuk ktk. harap2 you'll find a lady or woman or girl or wtv that truly understands you and your needs. and um just nvr say those things to a girl like what you said to me. you should know that girls tend to get just a tad bit emotional and overreact. don't say what you don't mean, sometimes people may not understand your jokes, aite? anyway i feel super awkward abt what happened tonight.. so i took the liberty to delete your phone number and your messages. i know this step sounds extreme but i really don't like holding onto the past and bad memories. what happened tonight was bad and weird. i'm not sure how i'll react when i see you. i'll probably run away and pretend i never saw you hahahhaha i am a chicken. so yeah. adios senora.

and to my best friend of 7 years! i really am blessed to have known someone like you :') i cannot thank you enough. you have had my back lots of times. in Primary 4 and tonight :) out of all of my bff's only you truly understood me. i am not sure how i can repay you! tauk sik selamak tok perasaan kmk rasa lain semacam jak, tapi bila kmk confide in ngn ktk everything was solved. kawan kmk lain semua mcm padah 'just ignore him la' tapi you actually took the time to actually ask me what happened and grew patiently with me while i sat there typing away telling you abt my short-lived love life. hahaha. i know my problem may seem small to you but sometimes it's the samllest things that bugs my mind. terus terang eh kmk nang rasa bersyukur lalu ada kawan macam ktk. walaupun kita jarang bertemu kmk pun sik sangka ktk masih anggap kmk as your best friend. terharu lok kmk jap *awwwwww* hahaha. over these past years in high school i've really seen you grow up! dolok bukan main gik tomboy, masok high school alu romantic ny ehhh hahahaha.
thank you for lifting this heavy feeling off my chest! :) i love youuuuu bebehhh hahahahaha.

adios.